yesterday is gone

As I lay in my bed and think about my life I remember so much pain and sorrow inside my life was full of grief and misery happiness and sadness but mostly chronic pain for many years I suffered with mental illness bipolar depression and truly having no self-esteem I lost my whole family and somehow now I’m redeemed I feel like I’m 30 years old even though much older I’m living my life for me now instead of always worrying about everyone else who never worried about me you have to think of yourself in life you have to love yourself in life and let go of the past and let go of the memories that keep you locked away inside your mind when you let them go you will find the true inner peace of mind that everyone is searching to find when you let go of things that haunted you from the past you can move on to the present you can love yourself for once and appreciate God’s gifts all around us .it took me almost 45 years to feel this wonderful feeling of love for myself without needing or wanting anyone’s advice or help I am truly at peace and it’s all because I finally started to love me not worry about where I’ll  be or where I was .I live for today not yesterday and not tomorrow we are not promised anytime on this Earth we are truly lucky to be God’s children and have a chance every day to start a new canvas in God’s beautiful nature and Grace just look around and you will see the birds the skies the trees all the colors of the rainbow all the beautiful things we forget to see so live for today it will  truly make you happy just a thought from a woman who couldn’t even function for over 18 years due to chronic pain and depression and overcame it all even after losing my whole family it is truly a blessing to feel self love that’s the most important thing we need not love from others but self-love from within your life will change and your eyes will open up to the beautiful things….