My minds inner peace

It took me way too long to find my mind’s interviews all the days of my life were tragic memories of all things that were bad to me from 7 years old I started this journey of self-hatred only towards me I could never Escape my mind’s lost identity so from that day forward I tortured everything inside of me everyday was a struggle never happy never wonderful always sad always miserable always in pain and never liveable at a young age I did things that only older people should do I tried everything to shut out my mind’s inner thoughts but nothing helped it just kept destroying my heart and soul with no self-love and no self-control even though God gave me the greatest gift of all a beautiful baby girl my one and only child I still struggled daily to find what everyone called inner peace but I never had in a piece I only had inner hatred towards me and love for everybody but me took me half my life to realize and let go of the past that haunted my heart and mind the journey was long and very heartbreaking lost a brother’s and sisters my mom and dad my whole family and then I finally found love for me even though I have lost everything I can honestly say I’m truly at peace for once in my life at 53 I’ve had a good life a bad life a life I wouldn’t dream for anybody but since I found inner peace I feel amazing and loved by me God’s lessons maybe had but once you realize all you have to do is love yourself and let go of things that ruins you as a child you can do anything anything’s possible within her love inner peace and her happiness in self-worth is what I found and I am truly finally happy with just being me don’t let your mind control your destiny have faith in yourself let go of the past and you’ll see what I mean we all can change how ways of thinking just give it to God and remember your path may be hard but you can always find the rainbow and light at the end of the tunnel that will turn your world around to a point that you’ve never could believe how truly amazing life can be just love yourself like me then you have no more enemies only the love of oneself can set you free peace and love always Vicky